The past couple weeks, Lusternia has felt so busy to me that I barely know what to do anymore. I have a huge laundry list of things that I'd like to finish on a daily basis now, as well as the numerous long-term things I'd like to accomplish. Tonight was the first time I've sat idle in probably two weeks of playing at least 5 hours every day, and even then it was only because work today was absolutely draining and my fingers are too heavy.
It wasn't always this way, though. Every other time I've played Lusternia, whether on Kio (on whom I first stepped out of the portal) or any other alt, I always get discouraged after a month and a half or two months. I always lean toward learning combat because that's where I have the most adrenaline-filled fun-times. But alas, I always get bored and start feeling lonely because everyone is so elitist and runs around in their little cliques without ever interacting with anyone else.
So, this time, when I logged onto Kio, I did something different. I took every chance I could to talk to anyone or anything that moved. I stopped waiting for someone to look at me and say, "Hey there, why don't you come play on our side of the playground today?" Clearly this is what I've always neglected to do in the past.
All it took was trying my damnedest to RP turning into a tree. That's it. I sat back and told myself, "You're not ______ today, you're Kio Erid'in. You're turning into a tree and you feel rejected by your family. You've never met this Elanorwen person before, but you're going to talk to her. You're not going to wait for her to tell you what you should be feeling or how you should be acting - you're just going to do it and see what she does." Wouldn't you know it? Look at all this stuff I have to play with now. This side of the playground is so much fun.
Just getting the courage to leave my comfort zone and try to make my own story unfold with Elanorwen was all it took. She gave me at least an hour of her time, and all I had to do was ask. As a player, that interaction completely and totally changed the way I play Lusternia. Instead of being excited to get off work, come home, and mindlessly wait for combat-spam, I get excited about the ritual I spent a week writing, which I performed in front of two people Kio had never met before, messed up terribly because the notepad I had everything in flipped out on me right before I started, and ended with Xenthos giving Kio a fourty-five minute private lesson on growing up. I get excited because I saw something interesting while I was at work and it gave me a design idea. I get excited about a big question I want to ask Thul about the fae so I can listen to him as he fleshes out a person in front of me, made of sweat, dedication, and innumerable stories about the unending lore of this text-based world I'm taking a break in. I get excited because, on my way home from work, I finally thought of how I can give Lyora the cookie she always wants from Kio even though he's a forger.
All these stories are happening because there are other people who want to mix their imagination with mine. They've sat aside part of their day to come play pretend with me, but I never stepped up. So, I just want to take a minute and say thanks:
@Iorwen: For a relation to the above. You sat with Kio as he tried to rub out his aching limbs after waking up from decades of sleep. That spot is now his favorite place in Glomdoring. @Morkarion: For the first time you interacted with Kio, looking over his design for fullplate. You didn't just shock me ICly, you shocked me OOCly. You are best big-mean-scary-guy. @Septim: You're the best Keeps there is, especially because you let Kio call you that. @Nihta: For being an uppity snob and telling Kio exactly what you thought of him. @Celina: For bringing me, as a player, into the first Order I've ever been part of. I haven't done much with it yet, but I'm still trying to figure out how. It's on my to-do list. @Thoros: For leading so many raids. You may not realize it, but your patience is what made me not afraid to die in a fight. @Alary: For that time Kio tried to eat you. @Malarious: For that time Kio lied to you when you were engraving his nekai. Also for the threatening of tearing off your man-bits to immediately follow. @Xenthos: For the above. You basically gave Kio a new family. @Lyora: For making Kio wet himself on a routine basis. He wouldn't be engaged if it wasn't for you. @Thul: For being such an influential force on Kio, from the time he was Mister Tree to the time he became your fiance. As a player, thank you for dealing with my numerous, panic-inducing typos that I secretly pray you don't catch. I get very wound up by the vision in my head and can't seem to pour it onto the keyboard fast enough, so I often forget you're on the other end. I'm trying to get better at it, I promise! @Chade: For making not only Kio, but the player behind him, feel pretty awesome about all the hard work he's been putting in to trying to understand warrior combat. @Viynain: For that time when you were Xiel and thought Kio would make a halfway decent son.
Anywho! It's super late and I'm partially just feeling really sentimental lately, so apologies for being a big cloud of mushy softness. This aside, I've been thinking about this all day after the "Eventru said we can't have spears!" offshoot in the alternate weapon nouns thread: the player behind Kio wants to know why you, the player behind whoever you are, plays Lusternia. What exactly is Lusternia for you?
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Also, the discussions I've been having with various people nearly every day recently. I guess that's something. You hit the nail on the head about needing to seek it out, though.
Odds are I won't reach my goal for a long while though, so... yeah.
Elanorwen told him Kio was gay. ^_^
The person you stated they were for also isn't around enough for you to have been dating. /stalker
Malarious stays in Lusternia primarily for combat and balancing, it is intriguing to no end trying to balance skills and abilities. The combat has devolved over time, things getting higher damage, faster affs, etc from even the days of revised monks. -I- think it is powercreep, he thinks it is just the natural trend of things to improve over time. He misses the days of duels and mag tag but rolls with the punches. His goals are unattainable:
1) Achieve balance between the skills, convincing the very divine to correct the weave (yes Malarious views envoys ICly). He gets poked by envoys alot, and he actively seeks them out when they are needed for something.
2) Being known for his ability to adapt and use any skills for combat, and his ability to execute various "missions" and kills easily.
3) Become an Ascendant. To him a vernal ascendant isnt demi+, it is the organization telling him he belongs there. It is not taken lightly, it is a vested effort. This is why he is known to try new things if he does not ascend (not org change generally, but even guild hops), so he moves toward growth.
As to why I haven't left Lusty personally. I was looking at it briefly, until several of you told me not to!
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(says half the basin)
I stay because of Glomdoring. The ethos and feel of our gloomy bunch keep me going.
Nothing matters but my darling Ickytrees.
- I love the interactions the Divine have with players and their little roleplay interludes with each other. It's really something I've never experienced personally in other IRE games. Besides being endearing, it's also impressive to see the depth of their roleplaying talent, and how much thought and work they've put into their god's history. No words can explain how much respect I have for all of the gods, especially @Isune. :x
- Along with that, being able to see how much thought @Estarra put into the Elder Gods' histories, and many more facets of Lusternian lore.
- The relationships Zyphora has developed with her friends, and how we can pick up again even after so much time apart, OOCly and ICly. E.g., @Drae yelling at me every time he comes online for miscellaneous reasons.
- OOC designing stints with @Irillia are the best. She's my better Internet half. :x
- The whimsical crystal beauty of Hallifax. The roleplay. I am naturally and outwardly very reserved, so it just comes so easily to me. How everyone's so austere and logical in game, and OOCly, people (@Ciaran and @Shedrin) are just cracking jokes at everything.
- Also, Hallifax was hell (HELL) to navigate when I was a novice, but it was a challenge that I wanted to conquer. Growing more familiar with the city and its layout made me appreciate its complexity all the more.
- @Tulemrah's Medic! package. I probably would have given up without that.
- And when I tentatively tried out alting, the GA of a certain guild was and has been very helpful and encouraging. It's really helped me with advancing in that guild and sticking with that character. Thank you!
Thank you to everyone who has touched Zyphora's and my life as a Lusternian.That being the desire to accomplish many goals, and in a game as wide open as this there are LOTS of goals.
On going storylines and RP, some stuff short term, some very long term that I want to share with the world when the story is written and can be told.
Oh and the people are alright I suppose >.>
The divine voice of Avechna, the Avenger reverberates powerfully, "Congratulations, Morkarion, you are the Bringer of Death indeed."
You see Estarra the Eternal shout, "Morkarion is no more! Mourn the mortal! But welcome True Ascendant Karlach, of the Realm of Death!