(This message has been scribbled in messy handwriting, and carries with
it the faint scent of stale alcohol)
You don't know me.
You do know my brother, though, and...well, I don't really know how to
tell you that you saved my life when you talked to him. I suppose I hit
a real low after our folks died, and once he was old enough and pretty
enough to get his own food...I kinda decided to bugger off.
In layman's terms, that made me a bit of an arse.
I didn't much care, there was comfort to be found on the breast of a
stranger and in the bottom of a cup, and I didn't have to face anything
other than the next party. I hit a low, and then I pulled out the
shovel. Grinding xoqil, okorushi, cactus weed, and whatever else I could
get my hands on was easier than having to answer a question about what
came next. Than having to look at his face and tell him that...I didn't
know. He depended on me, and it was too much. I couldn't look him in the
eye, and so I didn't.
But when you can't feel anything -- (this small piece has been struck
through and rewritten several times, with each erred sentence finding a
deeper gash drawn through the letter) -- well, you can't feel anything.
While I was looking to escape my pain, I couldn't feel the good things
in life any more either. I drove my brother away, and if it weren't for
you talking to him, then I probably would have had my guts worn as
garters from a fight I picked in the back rooms of the Palace.
Akuanri didn't give up on me, though, and he limped his way into that
room and dragged me out. The way he yelled at me...it reminded me of
mum. I saw a little bit of her fire, and her passion, and I felt...bad.
But...it felt good, to feel bad? It's...god, I want to drink writing
about this, but I promised. I PROMISED. I'm not going to drink again
like that. Instead, we're going...to follow mum's footsteps.
Enlightenment is...confusing. It's something that I don't understand,
and maybe never will, but maybe he saw a little bit of it when he was so
angry. Maybe I saw a little bit of it when I was drunk. Maybe it means
something different to everyone. I don't...I don't really know.
I hear the city's been missing some dedicated ponderers of
Enlightenment, but once they heard who our mum was, well...the Masters
decided maybe they could give a drunkard and his brother another chance.
So thanks, I guess, for saving my life by taking the time to care.
Okay, that's it.
(there is an incredibly messy signature here)
A pilgrim who was once Shib.
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Part Two: Count to Ten
consider the lizard who sought to escape the sun in the comforts of the pond. The lizard was so
entrenched he could not see the sun diminish the lake until he was dry once more and his
clutchmate dragged him to the shade. Thus did the lizard seek enlightenment with its twin. Let
us meditate upon this."
Now, we were in the middle of throwing a party in Crumkane's temple as this happened! I made
it a point to remember for after, but then I...ultimately forgot. But the letter reminded me, and
made things make a lot more sense in retrospect!
I could. When that still didn't sate me, we ran over to the Temple of Meditation to ask the BMOC
himself, Yiratcho Chum.
With a melodic lilt, Caliph Rekath Ryseni of the Sand-sea says, "Hello dear Yiratcho."
You have emoted: Eritheyl wheezes as he rushes in, doubled over and panting.
You whisper to Rekath, "I never know how to act around the Masters, they're all so...calm."
The Insightful Yiratcho Chum, Keeper of Clairvoyant Reveries opens one eye, just a tad, and gives
You have emoted: Eritheyl stiffens, standing at rapt attention.
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