"I wish I had told you..." - Lusternia Edition

Rancoura

I've been mulling over the idea of making this thread for a while, especially when thinking about past characters in Lusternia who I wish I could have said one final thing to before they retired and/or just stopped playing those characters. I'm sure that quite a few of us are not too in-touch with the OOC community of the game aside from the forums, and it's entirely possible that the players behind certain characters could still be here, under another name. If that's the case, I thought it would be neat if they came across this thread, perhaps seeing an old alt of theirs mentioned, and were able to see the messages we wanted to leave for them after all.

So please, feel free to post old sentiments and what-have-you! There's a chance that your message will get through, even if you missed the chance to send it before.

Rancoura

I'll start with @Marina.

I want to apologize for the last RP we had, years ago, before I never saw you again. I want you to know that I actually really, really enjoyed your Oracle roleplay arc -- it was fascinating, and I am sorry that Rancoura was a dismissive b****. If I could go back and handle the interaction differently, I 100% would. Wherever you are, whatever you're doing now, keep being creative and awesome.

Sylandra

@Aeleon. I am sorry I dropped off the face of the earth for like five years. I see you've logged in a few times since I came back but we miss each other. I sincerely feel really guilty that no one adopted you after I poofed. I would be so happy to adopt you as promised.

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@Casilu you were hilarious and awesome and a huge reason I stayed in Hallifax when I started out as a noob. Hope you're doing well. Wish you still played mafia with us, your sense of humor makes everything better.

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@Elostian I sincerely don't think I would have made it as far as I did in Lusternia if you hadn't been such an active and involved patron in Hallifax. I want to say thank you for letting me see you at your best, and for all the times you went above and beyond for the city. I hope you're enjoying retirement.

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@Lyreth I'm sorry I backstabbed you ICly, but in my OOC heart you'll always be the first god who made Lusternia magical for me. Thanks for that, and taking a chance on a newb.

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@Arel you're amazing and I'm sad you retired. You were a pillar of Hallifax to me. Always were. Always will be. Enjoy your retirement, too.

Selenity

I'd rather not create a giant post, so I'll just come back to this thread every few days, if it's been more than a page.

@Nocht - I don't know if you're the same Nocht from back then or not, but I wanted to apologize for vanishing after you silenced my one character when she asked "boxers or briefs." It wasn't the silencing that made me stop playing her, it was realizing she was far more of a goofball than I could actually handle RPing anymore at that point. I'm also sorry for not RPing in your Order appropriately. I really looked a gift horse in the mouth - you would give me that sweet, sweet divine RP and I was RPing a complete and utter goofball. I wish I had the knowledge and depth back then to give that one character a proper RP arc where she'd become Glomdoring-appropriate.

Shaddus

@Terentia, @Eventru : I'm sorry I was rude to you in-game. 

@OldIsune: Our smallish chat about why Trill don't have a language is one of the highlights of my time in Hallifax as Entrias. I wish we had kept roleplaying about that.

@Janalon: I wish you played more often. You were my favorite protege.

Luce

@myrkr I'm sorry I wasn't a better e-son. He was really cute and I loved the interactions and lessons we had. I hope you're doing well.

@tau and @Janalon I'm sorry I was never able to find the proper motivation to continue helping the Nekotai grow. So much drama, and I always felt like I let you guys down. 

@Pectus You and Jynx were awesome siblings to have. I'm sorry Dawneye didn't go farther.

Nelras

@Pectus Sorry I never got to explain why I didn't like you and that we didn't get to work things out.

Phoebus

@Casilu Like Sylandra said, I miss you too, girl. I'm not into the whole Homestuck thing anymore, but I will never leave that old clan you made with me in the position of "Casilu's moirail." Trying to get my (rightly terrified) children to marry you so we could be related was always fun, and you taught me everything I knew about being a good Chancellor (go for the knees!) I'm pretty sure if you'd still been around when I gave up on her first marriage, I would've tried to make Phoebus and Casilu happen as the best couple in Hallifax. Wish you were here.

@Elostian I know we never got along. I always got the impression that you thought I didn't like you, or would never want to work with you. But I was just a goofy awkward kid with a terrible time communicating how I felt about things. I wish I could've known how to make it clear to you that even though we usually disagreed on stuff, that didn't mean I disliked you. If I knew how to communicate that better, would things not have gotten so tense between us? I don't know. But I wonder sometimes. Hope you're doing ok, wherever you are now.

@Rika What happened with you? We were friends and you helped me a lot when I was new. But then you got all weird because I was close with Arte. And not even just IC weird. I know what you did, and I'm sure you know how much trouble it caused me and him both. I try not to resent you for it, but it's hard. I always wondered if you even cared how much you hurt me. I always wanted to ask you why. Or try to understand why you gave up on me just because I had a friend you didn't like. But I came back and you're gone, so now I'll never get to talk to you about it.

Mine got a little depressing.

Daraius

@Skye I'm sorry I never did anything with Monks of Hallifax. I really wanted to, but I never had enough faith in my own creativity or stamina.

@Aeleon I messaged you, bro. We'll still totally adopt you, no questions asked.

@Maellio I miss you and your uncanny ability to make Daraius uncomfortable. I don't think he or I was ever as good a friend as we should have been, but I enjoyed perpetuating the fiction of it.

@Gadritan You made the few weeks I played in New Celest a blast. If I hadn't planned all along for that to be a temporary gig for Daraius, or if I'd stayed active on my Celestine long ago, I think we could have been buds.

Orventa

@Elostian While I never had too many interactions with you, I definitely enjoyed the anomaly drills you conjured up for the Sentinels leading up to the release of the Institute. Also really appreciated how you humored my newb pestering about restocking the Ministry of Plenty when Orv was Magnificus (because I didn't know there wasn't an actual stockroom to take or add gems stock to). She still has [redacted] and will cherish it always. When the Conservatory and Opera House came out, I was sooo excited, and I still get giddy each time I pass through.

@Rika You were Orv's first mentor as a warrior in the Sentinels, and even though combat didn't turn out to be a thing for Orv, know that she never forgot those first fencing lessons and always secretly looked up to you.

@Sarella I'm sorry I didn't get the chance to know you as well as I could. But what time we did have together was lovely. I hope you walk in peace and beauty, now and always.

@Arel/@Ileein Miss you! Orv was always caught between starstruck and hero worship when it came to you both. Just short of melting into a puddle of OMG. Science superstars!

Arix

@Lacostian I never appreciated you enough

Kalaneya

@Janalon You're the best and don't let anyone tell you different, not like anyone would anyway!

@Baden Not even sure if anyone know him, but one of my biggest mistakes. Bad parent RP and just took it to a poor place. If you're still out there, I'm sorry, bud.

@Astraea/@Leiliadhe I'll always feel like I let you guys down by not carrying the Nightshade banner. I wish I had the creativity and stamina to make it work.

Fyler

@Viravain I felt like an ass leaving after avatar. You're literally the best admin I played with over 10 years, right up there with Fain. I'd say you deserved more than you got, but Glom worshiped you, hardcore, and I was just the lucky sod who got to play along. Thanks for that, thanks for making me enjoy the game again even if I was a PITA.

@Crek You're probably the most underrated Glom of all time, which is saying a lot considering how much Glom loves you. You're phenomenal, and the limited few that really get to know you as a player and character are some lucky bitches. Thanks for letting me be a lucky bitch.

@Rancoura I think you're the only player I will ever admit to being intimidated by. Your RP was just so perfected and refined, I never felt like I lived up to the legacy you had built long before I came along. Queen was such a fun experience for me, but every time you woke up, I wondered if you hated me as some loud, pointless upstart. Hearing that you admired how I played Queen was an affirmation I can't really describe. When I said I felt okay leaving the SDs in capable hands, I meant yours, and I meant it. 

@Shuyin You're a bro, and you gave no fucks about the extra bullshit. When the game hated me, you just played, and you knew it was all noise. So that was cool. When the game population told me I was carried to TA, you told me "Good Job."  Which seems stupid, but hearing it meant a lot. It was supposed to be the most exciting part of my 10 year Lusty career, and I got so much shit for it. You and Sidd made me feel better about it all, reminding me I earned it, that I just wasn't a tag along. Thanks for playing with me, it was genuinely fun over the years. 

@Synkarin I hope you keep playing, you bring so much to this game. It sounds so stupid to talk about e-marriages and shit like they mean something, but we always had a connection over something, whatever it was.  I hope I wasn't part of you needing to step away, but it sounds like I was. I feel like you were one of the tiny few I really, genuinely got to know over the years. Your wife and your kid, and your life in general. You had so much that was great, and you deserved it all. It was almost a decade when you think about it! I loved being your e-wife, it remains one of my favorite parts of my 10 years Lusternian adventure, it was just fun. You're good people. Cyndarin wasn't a name I picked just for fun, I think one of my favorite parts of Lusty was that people always identified me with you. People called be lame and conformist, but the idea of being your Lusty OTP was a genuine type of fun (even if you left me for Tacita that one time). Being your other half for years, defining a Lusternian generation, was so much fun for me. Getting skills nerfed with you was a blast. I was the bitchy ying to your friendly yang. You are my favorite Lusternian, hands down, and seeing a comment that you missed me on Discord was everything. I want to have a beer with you some day.

Lynnie

OH MY SWEET LORD THE FEELS READING THIS THREAD IS REAL

Skanylla

I should have already probably told that i have really enjoyed my time at Lusternia. 
Not only have i evolved from being a novice at combat to a journeyman. I have also evolved as a roleplayer. Skanylla is by far my most thought out character yet and i wish to thank everyone who has played Lusternia with me. 

Sylvanas

@Terentia I still think about my time in your order and it still pains my heart when I think about how I left Celest and your order the first time around. I'm sorry you took it so personally. Wish we could have continued to be friends.

@Eventru Thank you so much for Meliashmora. Thank you for all the events, RP, and work you put into Celest.

@Lyreth You were my favorite. I still have old logs of random interactions. I so cherish the memories I have of you. Miss you.

@Haiden and @Sydney You got me through so much rough stuff. I will likely never forget what you've done for me. 

@Casilu Come back. I miss you. Also I still have trademaster of your cartels after all these years. 

@Elodres @Laranda @Zada @Calesta @Veralidaine  @Morvior @Otem and many others: thanks for the nights of aether hunting. I stilll remember you singing happy birthday to me. Thank you for putting up with so much bullshit from me.

@Malicia Thank you for the kindness you always showed me. I have so many fond memories you.

I could go on... but I'll leave it there.