I fell into a habit of exclusively drawing Lusternia-related things for years, and I was honestly happy with that. I had so much inspiration in spite of all that was going on, and so many stories I wanted to tell, so many logs lovingly thumbnailed in my sketchbook, lists of logs I wanted to illustrate. So many things I wanted to say. Time is flies and kitties are soft.
Lysistrata - All the benefits of social activity, without having to actually be around people.
Maeko - This vote message barely tries to be clever. Isn't that enough reason to vote?
Malayn - The more people we bring, the more of them we can kill!
Maligorn - Consider a floating crystal civilisation filled with bird-people and talking gems. That's just one of the six places you can call home here.
Malorne - Hart says, "If you doe vote, it'd be Fawn-tastic! Give a buck and take a stag at helping all of Lusternia!"
Manaiakalani - Vote for Lusternia or the next Ascendant gets fed to Kethuru headfirst!
Mboagn - Moist minute mugwumps make meticulously mad mages.
Mekeal - Even a blind krokani can see the benefits of voting, so why don't you?
Meprion - Efficiency is doing the least input to gain the most output, that is, to vote.
Meritone - From beauteous landscapes of sweeping gold to the darkest pits within the wastes! There's sure to be something here for everyone!
Meundi - Killing, chewing gum and more killing. Except I ran out of gum. Vote.
Misaka - New things happen all the time!
Miso - Behold, the Machine! See how it sparkles, see how it gleams! Bow before it... Before it eats us all.
Mjoll - For every vote a pixie gains her pixie dust.
Moi - Your vote will keep Lusternia afloat.
Mugushulishi - What would you do for a world where almost anything was possible? A simple vote is enough!
Mukansa - Only Nature can heal the First World.
Muluch - Vote for Lusternia or we feed the ascendants to Kethuru.
Musa - Glory be to Glomdoring.
Myste - I am Harbinger, hear me roar!
Naecia - Lusternia: It's what's for playing.
Naectis - This is the song that never ennnnds...I'll keep on until you vote, I swear it...
Nakarel - I've been reading my saved RP logs and it really made me smile. I met amazing people in here.
Nalani - Lusternia, where the possibilities are endless!
Nao - We're all-stars in our way and voting right nao makes you a bigger one.
Narabath - Lusternia, where you can literally be anyone else but yourself!
Naralis - Hunting. That's all that matters. If it moves, smack it. If it smacks you back, keep swinging until you or it dies!
Narynth - REVOOOLT! Descend upon villages with a veritable horde of allies at your back. A vote for Lusternia is a vote for your political domination!
Navirah - Hey you! Yeah! YOU! Friends don't let friends play terrible muds. Vote!
Nawaimana - More victims to crush, more souls fot the Engine! Vote!
Neladahi - Celest: Where the party don't stop until Ladantine's ship gets raised, and then we have a real mess on our hands, don't we.
Nepenthe - Have you hugged a furrikin today?
Netra - (Insert inspiring reason to vote here)
Nialla - Fighting, influencing, designing, RPing, we're all here to have some fun so let's try to be friends!
Nikkakorra - Don't you think, we should help the finks? The only way to save their homes, is for new players to kill the gnomes!
Noira - If you don't vote, who will feed the beggars?
Nymaane - The trees have a song to sing, why not share it with your friends?
Olethea - Nothing Matters but Ilistala. Glory Be to Ilistala.
Ossifer - Jingle I wrote, this is the one, thee now must vote, jingle is done.
Parhelion - Only in working and voting together can we elevate Lusternia to the Beacon of Firstitude.
Pash - Let us contemplate the inquisitive pyromancer.
Paxhos - If you vote, our Great Mother will let you live for another day.
Pectus - There once was a woman from Celest. She had hair of gold, and was not too old. But Magnagora was still the best!
Phoebus - Vote or be Smote!
Piccarda - Bar none, the most detailed and easy-to-use crafting system ever created! And houses!
Plagho - The Light versus the Taint. All the fun conflicts. Great people! Awesome guilds!
Pravash - Progress is a wheel that cannot be stopped. Your vote pushes it forward.
Puriel - The more voices we add to the choir the greater the song!
Pypo - Just... stop... thinking... Vote already!
Qoivhae - All ye folks hear the call, vote for Lusternia once and for all!
Rainaka - Vote for Lusternia so we have more people to throw at Kethuru!
Ratanu - Lusternia: It's more fun than an axe to the head, and less of a headache!
Razifa - To vote or not to vote for Lusternia: that is the question. The answer? To vote for Lusternia.
Regat - Vote for Lusternia, or the Wyrdling will eat you starting at the feet!
Rehd - Do it, just do it make your dreams come true. (This only applies if your dreams are wanting more players)
Reylari - Bored? Need people to kill? Vote now to acquire more vic--people to interact with!
Rhakastra - Earth, Air, Water, Fire. Village, Commune, Grand Empire. Pick a path, or pick none. At least vote before you're done.
I've been trying to write this for about four months now, but Iiiii blinked and suddenly it's almost halfway through August. I wish I had written this sooner. TL;DR I need to take a break but I'll be back... eventually!?
You probably haven't noticed Gurashi around much since my move in April. That's because ... it's really hard to be in Lusternia these days!! And that really sucks. Even though I'm no longer in my previously abusive living situation, I'm constantly shaken by minor things in-game that remind me of those days when I was spending 12-18 hours a day not in my people body.
It's gotten so bad where when I simply start to think about playing Lusternia, my heart starts racing and my head starts pounding. I get really sweaty and have a hard time focusing. If I do log in, I scan EWHO nervously. If I get an unexpected tell, even if it's about something wholesome or simple, I get sent into a full-body panic. And if I make it that far without logging back out, then I think about what I HAVE to do to be useful in game.
And I think that's another big problem of mine: I cannot remember the last time I played where it didn't feel like an obligation or a second job verses the slice of life content I came here seeking. There's always something to worry about, something to maintain, something to manage. I have viewed my experience by my 'usefulness', and if I'm not doing 'enough' then I get stressed and try to overcompensate and burn out more. And honestly, I should have taken a break so much sooner. But because I didn't and insisted on pushing myself, I'm stuck feeling like this and needing therapy for it.
Again, I'm sorry I couldn't talk about it sooner, and I wish I knew what else to do about it besides just vanishing for a little while. Because I love this game so much, and I love Gurashi, and I would never give up on their story - they literally saved my life! But until I learn how to stop suffering debilitating panic episodes and am able to convince myself I'm not so universally loathed, Gurashi's gonna take an IC honeymoon with their wifey, and I'll try again later after some time working on my me-self.